I’ am presently stuck because I can’t move away from my current life status. You see I am working as a case manager and not as a social worker at my current job. I don’t hate the job but it’s not my profession. I’ve tried to get a job as a social worker, but I’ve been unable to because like I have mentioned before I don’t have the license to practice. You see I failed the exam once again; this time by one fucking point. I can’t believe it. Now I have to take it again in the hopes that I pass it. I can’t move forward with out passing it, so I am stuck in the mean time. I am stuck as a case manager and can’t make enough money to pay my bills; especially my student’s loans. I am very depressed over this situation and can’t seem to get out it unless I pass the test is the only way. To add insult to injury; I am still stuck on my ex lover. He is awful even though he is still with his twenty nine year old girlfriend he still looks for me in the hopes that I will lay with him. I don’t get it. If he is so happy with this girl/child what is the problem why would he still reach out to me for sexual favors? Is it his ego or what. I don’t understand. When he reaches out I get illusions and think that he is going to break with her, but it has not happened yet. I know I am being stupid for even wanting him back, but I still love him, so I am letting my heart rule me. I know I must forget him and I know I will, but in the mean time I am horny and want him badly so he could quell those feelings. In addition, I am stuck regarding my social life. I don’t have very many friends and the ones I do have are not very supportive. When so call friend have I am convinced now that she is not a true friend and called me a crazy bitch then the next day tried to make a joke of it. I have not given her response to name calling and don’t intend to speak to her ever again. I will miss her but that is it. No more contact. That’s it! The only friend that I could count on moved to Florida recently. So in the mean time I am stuck with no real friends. It’s my fault that I don’t have more friends. I don’t have many because I don’t really go out. I really don’t want too even though I live in New York City where there is so much to do. So in the mean time I am stuck with all this bullshit and no good friends. I know I have to put more effort to change my situation, but I am so stuck that I don’t have the energy to even start. I feel like I am in a bottomless pit. I have tried to pray and supplicate to God to help me, but it’s falling on death ears. Which makes me feel empty and have doubts that God even exist. I intend to write in the future about those thoughts and doubts about God. On that note I will continue to cry every chance I get and remain stuck until I can muster the energy to get unstuck.
I am still strung out on him. I miss him dearly it’s been seven months now that we are no longer together. I miss touching him and kissing his lips. In fact I miss kissing him all over. I know that it’s over and that it will never be the way it was. Even if we meet again it will never be the way it was. I think about that and I get angry and sad. However, I’ve decided that because I suffered so much with longing for him that for a very long time I will not get involved with anyone else. I want to do that because I need to forget him completely before I can let someone else in. I need to heal and truly forget him. I still think of him and wish that were together again, yet I know and hate to accept that its not happening not now and not ever. For now I will savor my memories of him for he can’t take the love away that I feel for him.
Lately I’ve been so horny that I don’t know what to do with myself. I get horny at work, supermarket and of course when I am trying to sleep. I am 48 years and I am at my peek and that could be it. However, the feeling becomes so very intense when I do that I think people know. I try to calm myself down with playing with myself but it does not help. All I want to do really is have sex. I no longer have a boyfriend so I have to deal with this feeling alone. I don’t want to pick up someone or date men I don’t like just to get laid. That is not my style. I generally believe that I need to be attracted to the person or better yet in love. By writing this little snippet of what is going on my life helps distract me of my horniness. Lol ! I wish my body would stop craving for a bit so I can find someone to fall in love with and have sex and of course make love.
I’ve posted this blog to show support and show love to the LGBT community. In my post you will find stories, videos and information regarding the LGBT community.
All I have to say it ain’t right that lesbians, gay, bisexuals and transgenders people have to be scrutinized for being who they are. It’s prejudice. These people have a hard enough time dealing with their sexuality and they don’t need us to judge them. So don’t judge. Let them be. We all have the same rights. No one has more rights than the other. So shut the fuck up if you are prejudiced against this group of people. In my dedication I post several videos one from The It Gets Better Project and by Gylne Tider Let it Be. I also have posted information on websites that provide support and some that do not support; organizations, government that currently does not support same sex marriage or the serving in the military if your are openly gay.
Harvey Milk was a civil rights advocate and was killed for it.
Harvey Milk as a Child
Harvey was born in New York.
This is Harvey on his horse around the time he was in first grade.
This bullhorn is on display at our school.
We Remember Harvey
Every year, many people light candles to remember Harvey. They remember the good things that he did. They also remember the terrible thing that happened to Harvey and the Mayor, George Moscone.
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LGBT (also GLBT) and variations are initialisms used to refer collectively to lesbian, gay,bisexual, transgender, and queer-identified people. Variations that are sometimes used include—but are not limited to—adding “Q” for queer or questioning, “I” for intersex, or “S” (or “A”) forstraight allies. While LGBT is often used as a short way to refer to the various LGBT demographic groups, LGBT individuals themselves usually identify by other labels (such as lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, queer), or by no label at all.
Around the world, government policies regarding LGBT people range from the death penalty for sexual acts to civil marriages or partnerships for same-sex couples. Living conditions around the world also range from near-unanimous acceptance of public displays of affection to total discrimination in all areas such as housing or employment.
Will & Grace is an American television sitcom that was originally broadcast on NBC from 1998 to 2006. The show takes place in New York City and focuses on Will Truman, a gay lawyer, and his best friend Grace Adler, a straightJewish woman who runs her own interior design firm. Also featured are their friends Karen Walker, a rich socialite, and Jack McFarland, a struggling gay actor/singer/dancer who also has had brief careers as a choreographer, cater-waiter, talk-show host and nurse.
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U.S. president Jimmy Carter with Andy Warhol in 1977. Warhol was famous worldwide for his work as a painter, an avant-garde filmmaker, a record producer, an author and a public figure. He was one of the first major U.S. artists to be open about being gay.
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Sir Ian Murray McKellen,CH, CBE (born 25 May 1939), is an English actor of stageand screen, the recipient of the Tony Award and twoAcademy Award nominations. His work has spanned genres from Shakespearean and modern theatre to popular fantasy and science fiction. He is known to many for roles such asGandalf in the Lord of the Rings film trilogy and as Magneto in the X-Men films.
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The NOH8 Campaign is a silent protest photo project against California Proposition 8. The campaign features photographs portraying people in front of a white backdrop wearing white t-shirts, their mouths taped shut and “NOH8” painted on their cheek. The campaign was created on February 1, 2009 by photographer Adam Bouska and Jeff Parshley. The photos are featured on the campaign’s website, Facebook, Flickr, Twitter, MySpace, as well as a virtual world campaign in Second Life.[unreliable source?]
Currently, 2000 official photos have been taken and 1400 photos have been submitted by supporters. Some photographers and student groups have even set up their own photoshoots. The campaign photos have circulated on the internet and are appearing on many supporter’s social networking profiles, mostly gays and lesbians from the Los Angelesarea.
During the Miss USA 2009 controversy, former Miss USA, Shanna Moakler and co-executive state pageant director Keith Lewis encouragedTamiko Nash, Miss California and Miss USA 2006 first runner-up, and 2008 Miss California Raquel Beezley to attend a photo shoot to protest Carrie Prejean‘s views on same-sex marriage in the United States. Later, former Miss USA and Miss Universe 1997 Brook Leeposed for the NOH8 campaign.
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Things have changed a bit. I am now working as a case manager for a cancer care organization. I am over qualified for the position, but I took the job because I am running out of unemployment and could not find another job under my profession; social work due to my licensing issues. I feel like a total looser. I can’t believe this is happening to me; did not pass the license exam. I plan to rectify that in January 2011. I hope that I pass it then. If I do pass a lot of doors will open for me career wise and I am looking forward to that. As for being a looser I continue to be one by not studying yet. I plan it, but don’t do it. It’s amazing to me how I could be so careless knowing that my lively hood depends on passing this important exam. I can’t figure out why I am doing this. I know that I must study, but I have not started to get serious about it. I will. I hope. As for my love life it’s the same. The man that I love is still with the 29 year old woman. Until the other day he and I were arguing about still contacting him. He does it first I follow up and he gets angry. He is a mess that way. Now we are in speaking terms again until the next fight. For now I am not dating and don’t intend to. Although, I feel incredibly horny I don’t want to date because I am simply not in the mood to let another man in my life. I feel that way because I still have not gotten over my past relationship and feel very wary about ever having another one. Anyway for now I plan to think about doing the right things regarding my career and my love life and hopefully soon I will take the actions that I need to take.
I am afraid because I finally took the licensing exam for social work, but failed it by 9 points. I am disappointed in myself. I can’t believe I failed by little points. Now I find myself in the position to study all over again and waiting until I am licensed before I can get a job. No one will hire me with out the license. I am really scared about that because my unemployment is running out and because I can’t finance the test. I hear that I can get an extension on the unemployment benefits, but I am not sure about that. I will look into it in the hopes that I qualify for one. Today everything that is happening in my life is hitting me like a ton of bricks. I also still pine for my ex lover and he does not help the situation by contacting me and eluding that he wants to spend some time with me. I am nervous that I will give in and see him. He is still with his 29 year old girlfriend who obviously is not making him happy. I know what to do and that is stay away from him, but another part of me wants to go see him, so I can forget some of my problems for a little while. I consider his home my sanctuary and I miss the escaping there. Anyway I hope I get passed all of this. Meanwhile I will listen to music : (