It’s not a joke to be sitting in front of my computer and surfing the internet all day. I spend my days just doing that. Today I did manage to dust, but I did not do much else. I really need to reevaluate my life and make better decisions like doing something else besides sitting in front of the computer. I have so many things that I need to do. I need to study for my license exam, exercise, and meet with friends and family.
I am not a young girl anymore and I have to get some perspective. I need to prioritize and face my life challenges head on and not procrastinate to avoid them. I need to be again the woman that I know I am and that is driven and a go getter.
I know why I am acting like I have no responsibilities. It’s because I got terminated from work not too long ago. When I got terminated I was also handed a copy of my evaluation that was written by someone that was not even my supervisor. It was a vicious evaluation. I say vicious because the way she wrote it now makes me doubt my ability to be a social worker.
I know that what I am trying to do is hide from the world because of that treatment by my ex employer. I feel shot down by the termination and feel embarrassed, so because of that situation I have decided that for now I am going to stay home and sit in front of the computer for most of the day. It’s not a joke, but that is what I intend to do for a while.